But..

i want to cry

but there's no more tears left

i want to laugh

but there's no more jokes around

i want to meet and talk to somebody

but everyone seems to be far away

i want to be out of this but and but

but..i dont know how..

i really wanna go home..

Aduhai..

boringnye dok kat duisburg ni..kawn2 sumer da balik mesia..tinggal aku jer terkontang kanting sorang2 kat sini.nape eh..ke jiwa aku kat tmpat lain sbnrnye..semlm aku gi hntar noya balik mesia..ms kat epot tu..teringt time balik mesia time raya tahun lepas..nak sgt aku ikut si noya balik..bawalah daku bersamamuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..apakan daya,langkah tersekat..terbyg2 thesis aku melambai2..jelesnye kat noya..
mungkin sebb aku bosan dok sorang2..asyik terpk nk balik jer..pehtu rasa cam lmbatnye time pass by..bnding masa aku dok stuttgart dlu.pejam celik da balik duisburg semula.betulla org kate,klu kita tak hepi, tak chill rasa cam lama je masa berlalu..tp klu hepi,enjoy,chill rasa cam cepat je masa meninggalkan kita.that's how life goes..samada aku yg tak pndai sesuaikan diri ngn keadaan,tambah2 winter ni asyik mendung je smpai ngn aku2 sekali pon mandom ataupun aku terlalu rindukan masa silam..buat aku rasa idup aku kosong je..empty..tarak papa..
or perhaps, i am actually missing someone..the person who once used to make me feel like always having somebody..never be alone..wp jauh but always 'here' for me...tp malang..akhirnye brg yg baik terpksa dipulangkan..i am the one who choose to be like now, as i think i should only have something which i can afford to 'pay'..heh pity me..tkpela..aku percaya kdg2 yg dtg tu hanya utk testing2 je..nk tgk sejauh mn kita mampu utk accept and let it go..bkn utk dimiliki wp kita syg..pape pon Abg Din redho'! semua tu perkara da lepas..aku pun da tk sabar2 nk habiskan thesis ni..nk teruskan next stage of my live..nk graddddd!!
well..aku cuma harap smngat aku akan terus ada..sesekali rasa berat pulak nk pikul harapan org kt aku..especially bile jln yg aku cari tk jumpe2..how can i go on then..semoga dipermudahkan semua..aminnn

My pretty boys!

Afiq da besar and Akif senyum pling mnja

Iman nk dpt baby girl!

Amir da msuk sekola...akif moody..Iman taleh stop gelak..Anis pun nk dpt adik lagi huahua

lately terasa rindu sgt kt anak2 buah cik tie..kdg2 smpai termimpi2..da besar dh sumer..kecik2 dlu nk tdo cik tie dodoi..busuk2 cik tie mndikan..kncing atas cik tie pun penah ish ish..tak sabarnye nk balek jumpe semuaaa..